The Aftermath

I must say, I am feeling very emotional right now and I am not sure I can really blame it on mother nature.  It sounds silly, but this week I have truely come to realize those who care for me and love me and those who do not.  It is a peaceful feeling. But before that, let me tell you about my adventure!

So the morning of the wisdom teeth removal, I woke up with an ichy throat and nerves that went sky high.  I think during the morning, my most complicated task was finding an outfit that was comfortable.  I left my favorite pair of stretchy pants at school and the only short sleeved t-shirt I had was my uniform (you have to wear short sleeves for the IV). When we entered the office, I was pacing back and force while reading the precautions sheet BEFORE my surgery. Like I really wanted to read about the complications before my surgery.  There was another woman in the waiting room with my mom and I. Apparently, everyone was getting their wisdom teeth out on Monday.  My mom, ofcourse, was trying to make me feel better. She was cracking jokes about me being drunk and how anesthesia feels like that. I loved her for it but I just wanted to watch my Girls Next Door through my Ipod nano.  I was super nervous.  Then the nurse called my name and ofcourse I replied with a "Do I have to?" when she told me that I should just get it over with.

So she took another Xray and then she had me sit in the chair where I stared at the machine that would display my heart rate. She really did a good job of trying to comfort me and tell me how they would be taking my blood pressure and monitering me the whole time.  So when she put the laughing gas mask on top of my nose, thats when things started to feel good. It really does relax you and there are so many funny things I said; like how I kept telling them how it wasn't working and that I felt awake and how I always wanted to go to Pennstate University (which I really do not) and then they let me sit in the room for 5 minutes while I breathed in the laughing gas.  My dentist comes in 5 minutes later and says "Oh yes, the laughing gas is working." Apparently, I had a goofy smile on my face. I can tell you, the only thing I remember was the IV going in my hand, which hurt a little and then feeling something going through my left arm. I don't remember falling asleep.  And then it felt like 2 seconds later and I was awake. 

Ofcourse, the 1st thing I did was throw up. The anesthesia did not agree with me at all.  I couldn't keep anything I ate down. The first day was the worst. I was a hot mess, literally.  But I had my parents there for me and a few texts and voicemails and calls from those friends that I can truely count on.  It was nice to know that people actually love me and care for me.

and that is why I am a complete SAP right now.  I just am so emotional, wanting to be around everyone and cuddle with everyone.  I've just been sitting around, reading and watching TV and movies.  But right now, I could go with cuddling with everyone I know.  It is not like me to be this emotional and clingy.  It just really meant a lot to me how much I was cared for this week.  I don't know if I can ever manage to put this feeling into words; it is just a good feeling.

and So I conquered my fear and I am very proud of myself.